I hate October, I think it's kinda cursed month for my family. Two of my family members had died in this month.
On the 16th of October, my dear daddy had died by cancer. I hate cancer. It's the tenth anniversary of my father's death. I was in school and I had absolutly no idea about what would happen that day. I remember my cousin asked me if my father was fine, and I answered very confidently: "he is very fine". Recalling that make me feel like an idiot. I didn't even know that he had cancer. No one told me, no one told us.
I miss him so much that I feel so lonely. He is my father who let me ride camels, he prefered my spoiled brother to take to the grocery than taking me though. I wish he could see my baby and hold him. I wish I can talk to him. I always dream of him but my dreams are so lame and more like an anime!! Damn it!
The second member is my elder brother. The father of two daughters and one son. He was very young and wise, stubborn ofcourse, it's a genatic thing I beleive. He died on the 22nd of October from a car accident. This is his fifth anniversary.
On that particular date I remember I was very happy because we have a day off in colleg, everyone in college went to Gitex trip -except me ofcourse- so they cancelled the day! I slept untill 11 and then my sister came to me and woke me up telling me that my brother had an accident and he was in the hospital -she knew he was dead already but didn't tell me. After that I figured it out. It took me weeks to realize that he is gone, they are both gone.
I think I will stop here. Sorry guys, at some point I needed to write this down to make me realize how hard it is and how much I miss them.
Sunday, 1 November 2009
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
Ten things I hate about motherhood
Puke all over my body, especially my hair, because this means I have to wash my hair! Sometimes I have to wait until he is all cleaned up, feeded and sleep, and then I take a shower. So, imagine all the mess and smell, sooooo not ideal!
The need to pee when I am breast-feeding or changing dipers, especially at night, because I'm in his room and the loo is too far for me which means I have to wet myself sometimes. Well most of the times, but not too wetty.
Hello! I'm not wearing dipers!
Baby H sleeps when he is not supposed to. Baby H wakes up when he is not supposed to.
Baby H refuses to feed from his bottle and insists to feed from my very out-of-milk breasts.
Having fun pulling my hair and nose while I am sleep and not in the mood. Seriously, it hurts a lot.
Baby H refuses to eat when he is sooo hungry.
When he prefers to play with the remote control of the TiVo instead of his colorful toys. It's not even appealing!!
When he crys if the remote fell down.
When I have to pick up the remote for him every 10 seconds.
When baby H refuses to stay in his trolley while me shopping.
Wel, here are the ten things I hate about motherhood. I might think of blogging about the things that I like about motherhood. I don't know, maybe after three years from now!
PS. This is a mother's blog. You have to expect reading stuff like breasts, puke, pee, poo. So, deal with it.
PS. Did I mention I hate the letter "P"?!!
Later~
The need to pee when I am breast-feeding or changing dipers, especially at night, because I'm in his room and the loo is too far for me which means I have to wet myself sometimes. Well most of the times, but not too wetty.
Hello! I'm not wearing dipers!
Baby H sleeps when he is not supposed to. Baby H wakes up when he is not supposed to.
Baby H refuses to feed from his bottle and insists to feed from my very out-of-milk breasts.
Having fun pulling my hair and nose while I am sleep and not in the mood. Seriously, it hurts a lot.
Baby H refuses to eat when he is sooo hungry.
When he prefers to play with the remote control of the TiVo instead of his colorful toys. It's not even appealing!!
When he crys if the remote fell down.
When I have to pick up the remote for him every 10 seconds.
When baby H refuses to stay in his trolley while me shopping.
Wel, here are the ten things I hate about motherhood. I might think of blogging about the things that I like about motherhood. I don't know, maybe after three years from now!
PS. This is a mother's blog. You have to expect reading stuff like breasts, puke, pee, poo. So, deal with it.
PS. Did I mention I hate the letter "P"?!!
Later~
Thursday, 7 May 2009
It's a BOY
Thursday, 23 October 2008
Hello!
Hi everyone.. :D
Long time, no posts, but here is the best post that has the best news ever... I am having a baby ^__^ hehe
I wanted to share these news with my friends, since the whole family knows already, so I thought, who else I didn't tell yet! My friends and fans-for-nothing-in-the-meantime LOL
Speaking of which, I thought i'd draw some funny comics about the pregnancy and share them with you guys, but can't be helped, since I've got a new MacBook -the best gift ever ever ever-, i don't have photoshop, so i can't edit the papers I draw. I will figure out something someday, someday i said.
Later!
Long time, no posts, but here is the best post that has the best news ever... I am having a baby ^__^ hehe
I wanted to share these news with my friends, since the whole family knows already, so I thought, who else I didn't tell yet! My friends and fans-for-nothing-in-the-meantime LOL
Speaking of which, I thought i'd draw some funny comics about the pregnancy and share them with you guys, but can't be helped, since I've got a new MacBook -the best gift ever ever ever-, i don't have photoshop, so i can't edit the papers I draw. I will figure out something someday, someday i said.
Later!
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